Relax…

I have seen the midst of an autopsy before, brain showing, lungs in scale, yellow rubbery skin. These instances always make me a little more amazed by God, sometimes a bit grossed out, but today was different. My mom sent me back to make sure there weren’t any bodies around so she could take Quinn back to show the autopsy assistant his mohawk. I went back and saw that the first table was clean, peeked around the doorway, second table clean. Then I looked up from the table and saw a visiting Dr. working on something that looked at first like some organs. As I was turning around to give my mom the OK I saw tiny legs. It was a newborn. It didn’t hit me until later tonight, that was somebody’s baby. Someone had carried that child for close to nine months, probably given birth, maybe even taken it home from the hospital. It broke my heart. It made me thank God for my children and their health. I prayed a little harder for baby Malachi.

I hope this wasn’t to much to talk about, sorry if it was.

Last Tuesday night at My Gym Johanna crossed the monkey bars all by herself!. She has been trying since school started in August. The furthest she had ever gone alone before was 2 bars. She is so awesome!!

Quinn was pursing his lips and blowing in and out while getting into mischief. He started whistling. It was very cool!!

On site at the Y is a “preschool” type of program called Kinderclub. It has kids aged 3-5. The current teacher had pink eye this morning and came over to childrens corner where I’ve been working and asked if someone could teach for her today. I offered, so we went upstairs to clear it with our boss. Apparently, they were going to be interviewing someone today to replace the current teacher (she had just given her 2 weeks notice and is going to a different job). They both asked me if I was interested in taking over. I asked a few questions and we left it up in the air. After a fun morning morning I went up and told my boss I loved it and wanted the job. So monday we will do paper work and I will shadow the current teacher. Yea!!!!
It pays slightly more, has a few more hours teaching time, paid planning time, an account at Lakeshore where I can spend $100 a month for supplies, paid shopping time, and mileage reimbersment for driving to shop for supplies. I am so excited! there are six kids registered and I have an aid who seems like she knows what she’s doing. Quinn can be in childrens corner or he can come in the classroom with me if he needs to.

Nathans cousin gave me a belly dance workout video for christmas. Its really fun and alluring too. I would love to host a workout session for all of you ladies who might be interested and even those of you who think you cant do it. Let me know if you’re interested and we’ll figure out a time.

It seems to me that naming a son is more difficult for more people than naming a daughter. We had the hardest time finding just the right name for Quinn. I have four friends who are all pregnant with boys, 2 due in feb and 2 due in march. Two of them still dont have names. I ran into a mom at the Y today who was pregnant at the same time i was with Quinn. Her daughter was in Johannas 1st preschool class, they are all very sweet people. I met her baby(11mos) for the first time today, his name…Rincon. what the heck kind of name is that. Its a dog name thats what. Jeremy’s dog to be more specific. Jeremy’s wonderful sweet rodesian(sp?) ridgeback who got loose and dissappereared for a week and was found on the side of the 101 fwy while Jeremy was away at work. Sara and I drove, picked his remains off the side of the freeeway, put him in the trunk of her car, and took him home. Nathan put him into trash bags and when Jeremy got home two days later we took him up to a hill near the cross and in tears and prayer buried him. Poor Rincon, not to mention Jeremy. But why would you name your child that??

And yes nathan I know it is the name of a beach.

I taught joey how to play checkers tonight. she liked it and did pretty good, but she got a little bored after a while cause it was a long game. We didnt finish, but she says she wants to be red tomorrow.

Dont eat chocolate and then drink wine. BlaHHch

I took my glasses in to have them adjusted so I might be able to see a little better, since ive been looking out of the top part. The girl fixed them a little and then offered to change the nose pads saying the silicon kind is more comfortable and doesnt slip as much as the “hard” ones. I let her change them and was pretty sure everything was good, and we went shopping. After 20 minutes i was so bothered by the new nose piece that i could stand it. Sure they didnt slip on my face so much, but any time i moved my face the glasses would get stuck to my nose in the wrong place and then be crooked. We went back and a different girl came to help me, the other one was at lunch. She said that they didn’t have any of the other nose pieces. I said what about the ones she just took off. Oh they were probably thrown away. Can’t you get them out of the trash? Well, I’m not digging in the trash! I will, bring it to me. I can’t let you because there is stuff from the lab in it, and what’s her face is at lunch. You can wait like 45 minutes and she might be able to find something from another pair of glasses but that will take a while.

(Sorry I decided not to use quotations)

So I asked if I could return them for a full refund and she rudely told me as long as it was in the 30 days. I really wanted to take them off and throw them at her, but I refrained. If I had I never would have found nathan and the kids, cause I would’ve been blind. Now I have to go back again to return them. And I still need to know what’s wrong with the Rx, and since we can’t afford to pay another Dr. I guess I have to have these jerkoffs re-examine me. BLAHHHHH!

I had a recheck at the eye dr. today to check the contacts and stuff. I made the appointment at their request because thats how they prescribe contacts, you test them out for a week and if they work out you can order some if not they try a different kind. They sadi the appt would take about 15 or 20 minutes so I made it for after work before I had to pick Joey up from school…12pm. I got there 15 minutes early and checked in. Quinn was asleep in arms cause the stroller wasnt in my car. They took me back to the waiting area to see th doc and Quinn woke up. He had a poopy diaper so I asked the assistant how long it would be, she said I had time. So i changed Quinn and got back before th lady waiting ahead of me had been called in. Meanwhile Quinn is getting bored and hungry and still tired because his nap was about 10 minutes. So he was fussy and aggitated. 30 minutes later I still hadn’t been called so I phoned my mom to come get the carseat and pick Joey up from school by 1pm. Now 45 minutes gone by I finally am called in. My mom hasnt arrived yet and Quinn is really frustrated and screaming. The doc asks me why Im there, i say a contact recheck, but im not going to use them afterall, but im having a few problems with the glasses. He asks if there is someone to hold Quinn and I say no he can sit on the floor. “No he can’t be on the floor in here, someone got thier fingers ruin over and it wasn’t pretty.” “I can’t check you with him in here. You’ll have to reschedule.” I was pissed. Its not my fault they took so damn long to call me back. And if they couldn’t do the appt with a child in the room…Tell Me That in the FIRST place assholes. It really hurt my feelings that my baby was a problem for them. I totally understand that it would be difficult especially now that Quinn was so upset, but I had a scheduled appointment at a specific time and had they taken me at that time Quinn probably would have been content and managable. And if it is their policy to not allow babies in laps or on the floor they could have told me that when I walked in alone with a child for an appointment.

I know i probably overreacted but I was tired and frustrated. I almost cried.